I have been a busy bee, and I am so happy about it.
I used to feel like I didn’t have a whole lot going for me in my life. I felt like I didn’t have a purpose and my days were meaningless. There was nothing major I was contributing to the world around me, I wasn’t working towards anything, and my self love was at an all time low.
But something shifted for me that reignited a flame that I needed to be redirected (and that’s a story for another day, we’re here for something else today).
I was so close to losing everything that I realized I needed to make some serious changes if I wanted a real shot at living.
So I started dabbling in more things. I started trying to make a “plan” as much as one can plan during these unprecedented times. What did I want my life to look like? Maybe not necessarily a five year plan because the big picture tends to overwhelm me, but even something small for the day or the week.
There have been so many times that I have looked over at Timmy and said, “I feel like I haven’t done anything at all today.” When in actuality, I have to reframe the narrative I’m telling myself, because the truth is I am doing so much more than I’ve ever done before.
I’ve been working on a book.
I’ve been developing a journal prompt series.
I’ve been recording music.
I’ve been helping others with their social media, websites, and video content.
I’ve been recording for various podcasts.
I’ve been knitting my first pair of leg warmers.
I’ve been educating myself on various things that are transpiring in the world.
I’ve been moving into a new house.
I’ve been a dog mom, partner, daughter, sister, aunt, and friend.
I’ve been continuing to manage my depression and my eating disorder. Every. Single. Day.
I mean, that’s kind of a lot. If someone else told me all they were accomplishing all this, I would probably look at them wide eyed and say, I’d could never do that. But it’s so easy to put ourselves down. It’s easy to not give the credit when it’s necessary.
The moral of the story:
I never give myself enough credit.
Honestly, I don’t. Ever. When I plop myself down on the couch at the end of the day exhausted telling myself “I didn’t do anything at all today,” I have to stop myself and reframe the words that I am telling myself.
I have to remind myself of all the work I’ve been putting in towards achieving my goals, even if they are my daily goals. Because at the end of the day, your worth is not determined by what you’ve accomplished or how productive you are. Your worth is only determined by you, and the value that you give to yourself. You are worth it baby, I promise you that you are WORTH the credit you DESERVE to give yourself.
If you’re downing yourself, try really hard to give yourself a little credit today. You deserve it.